In The Moment...

It was in that moment of extreme emotion,

those lines gushed into my mind...

It was in that moment of numbness,

I realized the intensity of emotion...

It was in that moment of darkness,

The shackles of numbness caught me...

It was in that moment of light,

The beam of darkness found me...

It was in that moment of realization,

The light seemed out of focus...

It was the moment I met you,

I understood what realization is...

Abate and Abandoned

I am neither here nor there,
But my presence can be felt everywhere.
I am around you when you need me the most,
I am beside you when you feel lost.
Ever wondered why I am so...
It's because I am a lonely soul.
I've given you all that I had,
And I'll be sheltering you wherever I can.
Relations demand selfless giving, that's what they say...
But I'm a human, I too long for your little attention and care...

CALMNESS OF THE BLAZING FIRE

I see the sky sob as rain,
Every drop eloping my tears in its embrace,
Anguish flows out in streams,
But the fire within won’t recede.

I see the sun is burning hell,
Immune to it I’m into an iron cell,
Constructed by my own will, I feel like calmness in this blazing fire,
How can I burn, I’m the ash of my own pyre.

The earth is always stepped upon,
Crushed desires, failed attempts, who’s there to hear me mourn,
Dry blood, open wounds, covered again for another rampage,
Treacherous are my aspirations, dawdling will lies on crest.

I bloom up in the burning hell,
Under the rain I camouflage, adding up another layer.
Cries of agony, muffled by restless soul into a drone,
Such a heavy heart, why do they sound so hollow to my own.

More below the earth than above it,
Different shades of layers have created the crystalline mist,
I see the sea in eternal pain,
Serenity is the attire for your solace.

Crave it and burn the layers,
Waiting for your breakthrough, ash will extinguish drowning into nothingness.

CHANGING TIMES...

The mind machine is working, cutting the silence,
The clattering is too loud right from the time it commenced.
Filled up with joy, sorrows and guilt,
Trying to avoid the chill she takes refuge beneath the quilt.


The two decades of this fog have made her a nobody,
Oh yes! Time is never steady…
But this fog wasn’t there by birth,
Was it the result of some kind of dearth?
Or is it the heart and mind playing the game.


She has always been the loved one in her family.
The bright star-expectations running high on her shoulders,
But then-don’t know when it all started-she got lost among the boulders.
And then came from under the covers-LUCK and it struck!!


She got more than what she expected, joys and laurels were at her feet.
It is not right-she knew deep down within,
Promises she would make to herself-every time she thought it to be “Sin”.
But ah!!.... So “USED TO” she became to it, all the promises went in vain.


It went on and on and so on…..
Until came this dawn…….


This time she knows she’ll fail,
Aware that luck won’t come to help.
It’s high time for her now or else it would be too late.
Loved ones are sick of her carelessness as they want her to excel.


Fun, frolic, carelessness and merriment-this happiness is momentary,
For her, relationships had always been priority.
What do people mean when they say “grow up!!”
But now she knows people will relate to you if you are worth showing up.


Special streak is there in every individual,
Some recognize it early and those who don’t still work for it.
She has always dilly-dallied the TIME,
Making a fool of herself - hoping that the fortune will bring the dime.


She always knew she has it in her,
Discontented she would end up- when in front of others her efforts would blur.
Now she’s going to give “better than the best”,
The fog can be cleared only by her and nobody else.



This one is a collection of weird thoughts...if anyone can relate to them ...please let me know.....

Introspect

Pain...Grief... Sorrow....and "Time"...they share a very intimate relationship....

'Sorrow deepens with time. It etches deep into us with every passing second'.......this is what many of us think...and well...I don't disagree with it completely. People who are in pain due to some recent proceedings tend to say so...the pangs of pain are so strong that they find it never ending. But if we look at things in a more realistic and practical sense... then the truth is that "time is the biggest healer"... it mellows down all the grief. Actually pain can never disappear...only things that are of utmost importance in our life hold the power to bring sorrow, so we cannot forget them...but the grief gets covered by the different layers which are brought by the time.....and its all diluted....and when the old wind blows again....some of those layers are stirred and we feel the pangs of pain again.

For instance...look at the last year terror attacks...we all were terror struck(and still are..)...we sympathized with the sufferers, swore to fight terror (when at first we need to fight the terror inside us...)...and now.... after a few months... its all the same with a little changes here and there...(aah!! changes...!!) ...negotiations are on.... but it's again the time playing the trick...its all mellowing down slowly. But as I said it wont disappear.... it will be stirred if (I hope not) something similar occurs again.... but why is it so. The fact of the facts is "Time cannot be chained"....and since no one can hold it ...no one can prevent the mellowing down too.... but what can be done is making the full of the present .... "PRESENT" it is...meaning "THE GIFT"... why do we just sit and rock our heads in grief... why don't we put the anger that always accompanies the pain (yes...pain and anger are acquaintances.... ) into action.....why do we wait for the time to mellow it down....why??

OK.... look it at a smaller scale....A person fails in a task assigned to him...it may be an official project, a school assignment, a position in the game, or anything.... he may drown himself deep into the ocean of remorse...blame himself or others ..... he may cry, rock his head in disgust....and may give up the job swearing not to get into it again. And so the time covers this pain with different layers.....which get stirred time and again...and so many say..."my past haunts me.... however hard I may try I cannot escape from its clutches..."...and well... we can never escape from anything... light and shadows cannot be separated...the more we try to hide things into shadows..the more is the probability of them coming under light. The best way out is to face them...if the person ,instead of weeping,... analysis himself ,goes through the mistakes he made...and puts all his emotions into action to make sure that he never faces such a situation in future then.... although the intensity of the pain manifolds but this way he is actually preparing a layer much rock solid which cannot be stirred easily time......

Yes.... it is we who decide which layer covers our grieves and most of us end up with covers easily stirred ... Time and life,they always give us an option to choose the layers.... and most of us choose the layers which can be easily stirred.....

What is required of us is introspection.... to analyze ourselves...to judge what we are...what we do... why we do so...to ask questions to ourselves and put our thoughts into actions..... we all have many questions in our minds which are unanswered....

I have always felt that this life is a game...a quest for finding out the answers to various questions......God gave us mind and heart...and made sure that they work synchronously but do always(or 99 out of 100 times) contradict each other....and thus increasing the difficulty level...so although the answers to all the questions are around us...with us....within us... but this duel between mind and heart does the trick.... and the one above is having fun and laughing as we poor earthlings go on round and round in search of the answers when they are with us only!!